Writing and Running

Wow, I can’t believe its been so long since I posted.  I really didn’t mean for that.  I mostly been distract since Harry Potter is technically over.  I’ve been indulging myself with as much fandom as possible (and yes I did wake up at 4 in the morning to register for pottermore 🙂 ).  I’ve also attempted participating in an online roleplaying version of HP.  I have to say I am the most boring roleplayer of all time.  I want to partially blame that on my writing skills.  I’m just not a natural writer.  It takes me 20 minutes to send a simple reply email to most people.  No that I’m “playing a character” online, I thought I could give up my perfectionism, but I’m still just as socially awkward in character.  I’m afraid to post something stupid, or something that will cause a negative reaction.  It took me two days to complete a scene, and nothing even came out of it.  It pretty sad that I’m afraid to have an effect in an online world.  Part of the social awkwardness is I don’t know anyone else participating.  And I think most of them aremiddle/high school ages.  Yeah, I feel out of place.  But If I even find and RP game with people my age, I’m sure they’ll mock me since I’ve never done an RP before.

I think I’ll get back to updating regularly soon, since the RP thing just isn’t for me.  As far as life goes, I’m doing ok.  The vitamins seems to keep me somewhat stable and not as lethargic as usual.  I’ve had enough energy to actual start running.  Outside.  In Public.  I can’t believe it.  I’m not really sure why I’m able to overcome my paranoia now, after so many years of being afraid to exercise in public.  I’ve only had two potential issues with people while running.  When I pass someone I tend to look down/ignore them.  Partially because I’m out of breath.  And I think I can get away with it since I have my headphones on.  I passed a group of HS girls a couple times on one run (I was doing loops)  and one pointed at me the second time and said something to the others.  They can go fuck themselves. I know I’m an awkward runner and I’m not that fast, but at least I’m trying.

The second incident was yesterday.  I passed two late teens/early twenties, not exactly high class boys getting into their car.  they decided to turn around and follow me for a bit.  I don’t really understand why, since I’m still overweight and not all that attractive when my face is red and sweaty.  That made me uncomfortable.

Regardless, I’ll still keep running for as long it’s light outside.  I found my 2.5 mile route (idiots permitting) and hopefully now I can work on getting a decent time, and in decent shape 🙂  I’m finding that running is just as cathartic as writing.  It lets me escape my daily stress and (almost) no one can bother me.

Very Expensive Urine

Sheldon (as Penny selects vitamin supplements): Oh boy.

Penny: What now?

Sheldon: Well, there’s some value to taking a multivitamin, but the human body can only absorb so much, what you’re buying here are the ingredients for very expensive urine.

Penny: Well, maybe that’s what I was going for.

Sheldon: Well then you’ll want some manganese.

(from The Big Bang Theory: Series 1 Episode 04 – The Luminous Fish Effect)

In an effort to try to take care of myself, I’ve started a new vitamin regimen.  I’ve taken a multivitamin most of my life (mother’s orders) but I never felt like it was doing much.  I’ve been diagnosed with iron and B12 deficiencies a few years  ago, so I migrated to iron supplements and then just B-Complex.  The problem was I was very inconsistent.  I didn’t like taking them in the morning, because then I would need to eat to get the pain in my stomach to stop.  I tried to take them at dinner, but more often I would just forget.

This was until I did some research into natural treatments for depression.  I found a couple things I was willing to try, and could easily get at a drugstore. so I bought everything I needed, including a weekly pill case.  Half my problem was I hated going through 4 bottles every morning for one pill in each bottle (i am that lazy).

Here’s my daily intake:

• Zyrtec (2x day, for allergies)
• Multivitamin (once daily)
• Vitamin B complex (once daily, helps with nosebleeds.  I haven’t had one since I started)
• St. John’s Wort (“mood stabilizer”, twice daily)
• Chromium Picolinate (also for depression, and according to wikipedia, stifles carb craving associated with depression)

I came across St John’s Wort and Chromium Picolilate while looking at natural antidepressants.  I’ve been feeling pretty good since I started the regimen a few weeks ago.  I definitely feel more emotionally stable.  I’m well aware this is more likely to the placebo effect, but I really don’t care.  I’ll take any help I can get.

So I pop all the pills after dinner and overall this seems to help, and I will continue until it becomes more of an annoyance than it’s worth.  But I could well be buying very expensive urine…