and I have no idea why. It’s been going on for a while now and I can’t figure it out. All I do is waste time, avoiding things that I should be doing or things that I want to do. I spend far too much time at work on the internet. It’s not like the work is hard or there’s a lot of pressure right now, I just don’t want to do it. and I have 10 different things I could be doing and I just sit there and stare into space/the web. I think about htings I could be doind at home. But it’s not just work. Once I get home, I think of all the things I should have done at work, and again, I just sit in front of the computer, looking for things to do. I have abundant free time and I could be working on awesome personal projects, but I just don’t want to. I don’t get it.
I’m definitely running from something in head. There’s something I can’t face, but I don’t know what it is. Oddly enough, I hate myself when I waste time, which is why I don’t work on personal projects, since they lead nowhere. But am I any better off right now? Just refreshing facebook and wordpress and icanhascheeseburger?
What the hell is wrong with me?