No offense intended to anyone who is bipolar, but I’m trying to explain why I can be so depressed and angry and lethargic and then be the way I am now.
I’ve been so hyper. Not necessarily happy, but I ‘ve been doing things I wouldn’t normally do. I started a new blog for my hobbies and I’ve been posting to that like crazy. I even put pictures up of myself, which is very much not like me. I’m initiaiting contact with people, but I’m also very impatient. I was waiting to hear from my friend about watching the super bowl (he said on friday we’d work out details this weekend) but by saturday night, I hadn’t hear anything. My brain goe in to overdrive, thinking he got a better offer, so I emailed him. a few mintues later he gets back to me, but I still feel slighted.
I also tried to apply for a textbook writer position for the new myHogwarts program. I wrote up my writing sample and eveything. Typically, I don’t want to interact with strangers on the internet who will judge me, but I was excited. I was still scared though, so I wanted to wait, and reread what I wrote. Turns out I shouldn’t have, since they just closed applications (it’s been two days for crying out loud).
So now, I’m upset I let another opportunity pass. I still don’t trust myself, but maybe next time I won’t be so hesitant. I have to take a risk at some point.