I’ve touched on this topic before, but it’s been right in my face so I need to talk about it again. I have two people I can call my friends, which may not even be friends by some people’s definitions; The Boy and J. I’ve known J since middle school but our relationship kind of fades in and out. Lately we’ve been getting long well, we actually hung out a couple times in two weeks, which is impressive since we only see each other a couple times a year. Which is dumb since she lives in the next town.
So we spend an afternoon/night getting dinner, playing games and cruising the mall and everything seem great. We find a game she absolutely wants to try but can’t afford. a few days later I end up getting it and she’s super excited to play. I invite her to my house (which I never do. She doesn’t drive so I always go to hers, plus that’s where the other people are). turns out she isn’t good at the game and I think I made her uncomfortable since we ended up having dinner with my family. That’s one of the reasons I don’t invite people over. It’s an inconvenience to my mother and I end up upsetting the general order of things.
So I think everything is ok at the end of the night, but I haven’t heard from her since. I posted a link to her facebook wall I thought she’d like, but she completely ignored it. We always “like” each other’s links. since we don’t see each other often, this is how we maintain a friendship. I know I’m over analyzing this, but I don’t want to lose the few “friends” I have. It’s like she only wanted to hang out with me when we do what she finds interesting. And I will cave to whatever she wants to do, but I won’t be able to contribute much. We have very different personalities and few things in common. Probably not enough to maintain the friendship, but we get along ok.
Plus we made theoretical plans to take a vacation together when she graduates but I doubt that will happen. I’ve been dying to go to HP world and she already went but would go again. I know I’m being selfish in wanting to go but I don’t have anyone else. I’d go alone but that’s not as much fun and kind of sad 😦
So now that I’m of no longer any use to J, I may not hear from her for a while. And now I’ve found out (via facebook posts) she has a new comic book nerd friend and they are exchanging messages like crazy. This is going to be painful to watch unfold.
And I lent her some DVDs the last time we hung out. I wonder if I’ll get those back.